Thoughts

It's been a while since I've posted in here. I guess I've had a lot going on. You see I'm juggling too much at one time. I guess you can say I put my feelings on the backburner in order to make others happy. It's a gift and a curse that is slowly catching up to me. Hopefully it doesn't break this outer shell that I have created to protect my sanity lol. I find myself repeating old habits... pushing people away when I feel I've become attached or they have gotten too close.... I'm trying to break it but the more I think about it, the more I'm shutting them out... one person to be specific. I don't know.... Maybe I'll learn when I push that one person away to the point where they don't want to come back.

I only have a couple of more days until I'm home... YAY! LOL School is starting to become too much but I'm pushing myself.... My goals must be accomplished; there are no other options. I'm going to make sure that everyone knows me and understands my heart. I plan to leave a mark.